So i got rejected from Parsons... I have an interview this Tuesday however with a government research company... the US Army Soldier research division in Natick... should be interesting... even though it's my ONLY oppotunity right now... maybe i'll get more replies monday since i sent out a bunch of my resumes over the break...
My break was good if you're curious... lots of relaxing with my brother and fam. seeing old friends was good too. Things at home are normal i'd say... there's a slight transition though seeing that both my brother and i are going on jobs soon. So that leads to arranging me bringing a car and them buying a new car for my bro... as he will be working in Wisconson.
I got a buncha new music over break too... some catchy hip hop and rock stuff... makes me happy to find new music that i'm addicted to :) I started to learn more poi stuff but i broke my current poi strings... and i think it'd take too much effort to fix... so either i'll get some when i start working... or maybe i'll get them for christmas from some one... o= meh doubt it haha we'll seee... not many people know what i want for Christmas... i dont usually want much... but when i think about it... i def want some glowsticks/poi strings (glowy).
One of the worst feelings you could experience is the realization that someone you like... just might not be the one for you. You like alot about them... their personality... looks... but there's that one thing that ticks.... could be something complicated... or something small.. but it just sucks... like what do you do with all your emotions... do you keep them? and just build a friendship... or invest in the relationship?? is it worth it?? maybe it was a one time thing?? too many things to consider... I've been playing aggressive for my own good recently with my relationships... i should be building up friendships more... which is what i inevitably do when i'm aggressive with my relationships... I'm the BEST (sarcasm) when it comes down to getting into the friendzone with people... i dont know why... is it a gift?? who knows... but it's a good thing AND sucks at the sametime... you know why? cause that means i will most likely follow the stereotype of "nice guys finishing last"... not exactly a bad thing... but then again i'm not the typical nice guy... or am i?? i dont even know... i'm just sorta in the middle... between jerk and nice guy... so average?? ugh... i'm just me... oh well... my friend Suzie from HS told me to just stay on the sideline... ironically it's what i told her in high school and now she's happy with a boyfriend at college.... i should swallow my own words sometimes... but it's always hard... if you've done i before i guess.... it's also hard to realize things like that.... faults in yourself... like who wants to just think of themselves as a bad person?? i guess a humble person lol... but it's hard to be humble at anytime... but then again it's always a good thing to strive for...
Anyways... my train of thought was cut off... so that ended my little splurt... i love doing that... just typing and running into different topics... it's great... my brother asked me over break why people write in blogs publicly and such... why they pour out their emotions to people that may be directly involved in issues between other people.... i didn't have a clear answer.... but i guess blogging is just meant for certain people?? It just flows with me sometimes... it's not to say i have no one to vent to... but it's more like venting to yourself... and then you can look back on it and see how stupid you were back when you wrote it... which is prolly what i'll think when i read this post 4 years from now or something haha.... but it's not like this blog is fully public... sure it's posted in my aim profile and facebook page.... but if you actually have clicked on it... then maybe you're interested to have a peak into my life... i know my close friend's dont read this... it's prolly more of my distant friends... which i dont mind.... i guess this is a place to say stuff like... Hello!!! since i probably dont see you for long periods of time :DD... but whatever, i dont write in this enough to have everything in my life laid out for you to read... just a preview i suppose... but for what it's worth i thank you for reading this to it's fullest extent... and it's nice to hear from readers that they do actually read... some people think it's stalkerish when they tell me they read.. but honestly i dont care... it's my decision to make it public right?? right... ok
Ok i really should sleep now... Mondays always suck... especially after longs breaks off of school...
Thanks for reading,
DYung
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