Actually... i'll try to cut through as much fluff as possible and get down to what's been on my mind recently... There aren't many people that read this in the first place... especially with the new facebook hiding the link to this... but i still do appreciate those who come along once in awhile to read.
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Sooo my friday night was one of the highlights of my birthday weekend. 5 of us (3 girls, 2 guys) went out to a dance party somewhere in cambridge. We chilled out in my apartment before going.... that was fun to say the least... at the dance party there was plenty of dancing to go around... i danced with a handful of random girls of varied... attractiveness... and yes i'd say from the scale of 1-10... i danced with both extremes... we were all pretty exhausted... but still ended up coming back to my apartment to chill.... which we just lounged around and talked till like 4 am... it was a good time all around, definitely one of the more memorable birthday things i've done... but hey you'll never know what's in store for the future....?
Anyways... i didn't get much sleep... maybe 6 hours before i woke up, showered, and was treated to some birthday DotA... very appreciative of that... the guys i play along side with are always give me laughs. After a couple games, i went out to Sushi for lunch... dunno if it was the BEST food i should have eaten after what i did the night before.... on top of that... my legs/quads were/are pretty sore right now hahaha... then just chilled around with friends till dinner came around where we tried to get as many people that i thought would come out to my birthday dinner... but that sorta failed in some areas... nevertheless a handful of us were going to go to Chinatown for dinner... but someone came up with the wonderful suggestion of going to Super 88... like i haven't been there too many times since i've been in boston... lol... either way the super 88 food court is amazing... i love Korean food... good times all around... then after we got back to NEU we watched a movie to end my birthday!... after the previous night i definitely needed a more relaxed birthday lol
OK! onto my random thoughts that have been all over the place the past couple days...
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As a single 19 year old, in college, and out of a relationship for awhile now... there is a certain mindset that takes over when he is pursuing a girl... As with almost every other person, boy or girl, in a similar situation or not, liking someone is a poison. The poison that blinds that person from seeing anything negative there may be in the person they like. This is all a talk around the inevitable topic of infatuation! Man it's hard to talk around it. So i suppose my point is that i HATE infatuation... because in most cases... infatuation can be good or bad, you never really know! The good being that you are more attracted to the person you like on many different levels. They can be any combination of Physical Beauty, Personality Connection, or you just like being around that person for whatever reason you choose! You like talking to them, seeing them, and all that cheesy jazz. Then you either stay in that infatuation... or you're snapped back into reality by yourself or some other means... That brings up where infatuation can be bad... as i mentioned before it blinds you!!~ those little things that would usually turn you "off" in the significant other become OK... Not saying that you're picky... we all our standards in someone we're pursuing... but there's a limit where some trait in someone else can cross the line and just totally break apart the foundation of what makes us, us!
Foundations of ethics and moralities are the two biggest and probably the only two players of the personality game between two people... people have certain ethics that others either agree with, are neutral with, or just totally disagree with... same goes with morales... we build up these two things to our own standards... whether it be from our parents teaching us or from our own life experiences... but when infatuation comes into play... alot of the time these foundations get thrown out the window.... sure we all love the way our hearts skip a beat when we see a certain person... i dunno if it's infatuation.. maybe it's how the beginning of love for someone begins... but at this point in our lives... early in our college careers... is it really worth chasing after that pretty girl you see everyday or every other week? is it really worth chasing after what makes us feel good inside?? Well of course it is!!!! hahahaha.... sadly... it's what drives a lot of us... in all our busy lives... what brings us looking forward to the next day?? definitely not the test that's coming up in our mathematics class.... nor the lab write up that's due at 6pm the next day... No... it's the pursuit of something more out of our daily routines... whether it be the infatuation or the real thing of pursuing... something more real??? i really dunno... i'm really tired right now... so maybe i'm just talking jibberish...
So some closing thoughts....
- I'm too young to be really think about such relationships... though that doesn't mean i can get to know potential future significant others... and whatever happens is just going with the flow...
- As cliche as it may sound to some... i like the good girls... whatever you want to consider a good girl... my standards are probably different for everyone... but i think you can get the jist of things...
- To add on top of #2... i like a girl who isn't too too shy... i like the type that opens up to you when they trust you... not hide stuff or are too afraid to speak up... headstrong girls are always a plus... though many girls probably don't think they're the "headstrong" type... but then again it's all in my retrospect.
- uhhhh man it's 2:30 am... i've been writing this post for awhile now... on and off through aim... so my thoughts MIGHT be all over the place... and for that i'm very sorry... but i do thank you for reading!
Thanks again!
DYung
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